Just a Word...

Okay so I know it's been a long time, and I have probably lost most of ya'll. Sorry about that. The truth is, I have been trying to find ways to distract me from my real life, because right now it's kind of stressful. So I read OTHER people's blogs and avoid my own.

I wanted to take a minute and post today to address some feelings I have been having about my self, my life, my attitude, and my direction. It's all about peace.

I found myself editing down my friends list on Facebook and deleting various social media accounts yesterday out of pure frustration with the negative energy I have been finding all over the internet. If someone isn't "calling someone out", or being sarcastic and caustic, or complaining about their lives or gossiping about celebrities or just plain old being a bully, it just doesn't seem like the internet, right?

I just can't take it in my life anymore. Don't get me wrong, I am often a very jaded and sarcastic person. I relate to my extended family almost exclusively in jabs and jokes. So I am not judging anyone. But after listening to my kids talk to each other like that, arguing, and criticizing each other ALL. DAY. I think I have hit my breaking point.

The older I get the more I crave peace, civility, propriety. I don't want to hear  my kids say how something "sucks", or "bugs the crap" out of them. I don't want to hear your dirty joke. I don't want to be the victim of a sarcastic jab or a critical glare. I don't want my kids to learn to expect the worst, to feel bad about their lives.

I want people to use proper names for their body parts. I want them to express their emotions without using crude or demeaning language. I want to see sensitivity and tact used in the interactions I am witness to and party of.

I want gentler words spoken, I want my girls to be soft and meek, I want my boys to polite and sensitive. I want for myself to be less jaded, less negative, less apt to be critical. I want all these things because I strongly believe the world is about to change. I think we are entering an age of desperate need, despair, hopelessness. I believe the only thing that will bring ME comfort during the times to come are going to be virtues: Patience, kindness, long suffering, hard work, charity, love, temperance, faith, and hope. These virtues are incongruent with the kind of attitude I have been immersing myself in.

It takes hard work to overcome bad habits. It takes dedication to be something that others mock and look down upon. But now, more than ever, these virtues are WORTH it.

Thanks for reading.